Finally a new wifey thread

[The Wifey]

Well, I didn't go anywhere for the weekend. And I decided to veg yesterday. I had IC this morning which was good except for coming out feeling like shredded meat of course.

My C told me to buy a teddy bear. I think it was Smart Cookie that also told me that. I am to go into my room and lay down with the bear and comfort the little girl inside of me that was abandoned and hurt. Sounds crazy, but really, really wise at the same time.

So today I went to a matinee with my H to see Bolt. I'd thought I was going alone, but he came home and asked where I was going and he said he'd like to go. It was a really cute movie, but me as the ever sappy one, had to tear up at two scenes. (What a dolt- its an animated movie for gosh sakes.)

Anyway, then we went to Wal-Mart and I found the softest, cuddly teddy bear I could find. I got a puzzled look from the H, but he didn't ask and I didn't offer any explanation.

Then I said I was hungry and he suggested we go eat. We went to Denny's. He seemed a little off. I asked if he was tired and he said no, he'd been thinking about my last email.

I was absolutely not going there. I just said, ok. He wanted to talk more for some reason. He said he wasn't sure how to respond. I just told him it wasn't written for him to respond to, just for him to take it in. Then I changed the subject.

Whoah, doesn't he try to bring it up in the car, too, on the way home. He seemed so sad and down. I told him it was ok. However he felt right at this moment it was all right. He was trying to say that he feels love but its different. I said again that its ok. Lets just enjoy one moment at a time.

He was quiet all the way home. I went to take a nap because I stayed up until 2 am and I am going out tonight. He woke me up before 5 because he was leaving to go to his friend's house tonight. I got a hug and kiss before he left. Nice, because I didn't initiate either one. I was actually hanging back.

He still looked sad, but I didn't say anything. I just let him be. He said for me to be careful tonight when I go out. I said I would and said the same to him.

And yes, I did cuddle that teddy bear while I slept. I am a 42 year old woman and I slept with a teddy bear. He must have thought I was out of my mind when he woke me up, because he had to have seen the bear. I have to chuckle at that.

Well, I guess I better get ready to go out. Tonight is GAL time.