He knows what it will take for him to come back. He isn't ready to do that. I said to him that was everything or about everything, that I want to be the only one. And I told him he could fix it. When we were at sears and we were talking about the TV. I said it would just be easier if you did not move somewhere. I didn't really say it loud, but H said it would be easier.... there was no end to the sentence it just trailed off. So he has to decide. Whatever he is going to do. I know he is still confused. I think once we go back to work and he isn't off so he isn't seeing me all the time. Maybe that will make a difference, I don't know if he will come and visit during the week or not.
Sidenote- this morning when I woke up after I had turned off my alarm and I went back to bed, I was dreaming, and I always have really weird dreams when I have gotten up and go back to bed. Anyway the only thing I remember from the dream is Believe in Homecomings. It was written on some sort of sign. So I hope that is something I can hold on to.
No Shopping yet. I am not going to do much this year for presents. H and I talked a bit yesterday about that. H said I need to save for the trip to Arizona...Then we both laughed. I am not a saver and H is!! I said well I don't want anything for Christmas, so that will save some money, No two pairs of boots this year. We were joking and H said yeah that is true. I don't exactly know how the conversation went , but I said And I am worth every penny. H joked at first and then said pretty serious. Yes you are. That did make me feel good. But I said we saved money by not going to OK city for the World show. I said see I have saved you a bunch of money! We were both laughing. It was funny. I need to find out what my mom and dad want. We talked a bit about SD24 what to get for her too. So I don't have too much to buy this year. H and I usually always got each other a lot of stuff, not this year.
Today for me it will be a surprise if we actually go back to the eye Dr. at the mall. OW is off on the weekends. I don't think she has been off during the week. So H isn't missing her when he as been with me. Although Tuesday night he was here, and last night he stayed until 6:00. But this weekend I will be curious to see if he actually does stuff with me today and watches the Chiefs with me on Sunday.
