Thanks Lola. Kept trying to find your thread so that worked! Yes my H said an awful lot of the same things. Kept telling me he loved me but couldn't live with me would have left me years ago etc etc We had been happy until the bombshell which came out the blue. He now says that he basically blamed EVERYTHING that went wrong in his life down to me - gee thanks! lol I don't know if you have read all my threads but please do as they will give you a great insight into what I went through and how we came out the otherside. Although at the time they think they mean every word they say to you underneath it all buried deeply they know it isn't true. Also, with PTSD there is this whole "there must be something more to life than this" thing which is usually after exposure to the trauma of war, death and near death experiences etc. Does any of this make any sense to you?