tying another knot #8

[Babygirl]

crissy here is what he said about the no i am sorrys or i love you in the bomb email. and thank you all for your continued love and support, i couldnt be doing this without ya'll
god bless you



I took this from my email from yesterday“My feelings now are I want to work things out and just maybe by getting these road blocks out of the way” what it should have said was by getting these road blocks out of the way maybe we can save us. And yes you are right there was not a sorry in there. There should have been many of them. Traci I am sorry, I am sorry that I have caused you this pain, you have nothing in your life to deserve this. I have crossed many lines and put you in many bad situations, I have been very selfish and un carring, iv never meant to make you go through your sickness on your own, but in a way you have kept me from some of that. I have put many things ahead of you and our family and that is something I would like to work on. Yes I want this to work, and yes I left the sorrys out of that email yesterday, I didn’t mean to do that, I was extremely worried about just sending you that email. Last night I wanted you to just go to bed with me so I could hold you. yesterday I just wanted to be at home, but I needed to be at work, not just for month end but because of the 2 new guys. It was hard for me to leave last night, I didn’t go to her house, I slept in the Durango. I just needed sleep, I barley got any the night before, I felt like crap and most of all just stressed. I know you are way more stressed than I am, im sorry for leaving you there on your own. I am going to try to leave here a little early. I am very sorry, I know it is hard to see and belive but I do love you and over the last several months I have been falling more in love with you, I know I have put more on your plate then you may be able to handle and for that I am sorry. I realize the road ahead is and will be the hardest either of us has ever had to face. I am sorry I messed up your holiday, but I didn’t see it as a complete loss, I still thought we could have thanks giving together with our family, to me we have much to be thankful because I see this as a possible new beginning for us and our family, I know its tuff and I know I have pushed you to your max load but maybe we together can find a way to salvage us. Im sorry and I do love you.