I just read it. and I read his last email. did you ask him why he didn't say sorry or ILY? those were both the things you wished he had said, however, the first email did say all those things, maybe not in those words, but everything he said meant it.
I can't say what I would do since I have not been in your shoes. But if I had to make a guess, I would probably say yes, I would stay with him. BUT, this is where HE gets to prove to you. You do not need to make any decision right now. You could even say you'd like to start working on friendship right now, not the M. Right now, this is still about you taking care of you. That is something that needs to be done whether or not you take him back. and in the meantime he can be proving himself to you. You can tell him the boundaries that you feel are appropriate for an R to ever work and if he does not want to abide by them, well, you can say bye. IMHO, I think he has struggled so much for so long, and he has been cruel to you because of what he's done. I know it sounds so wrong, but it's always the people that we love that we allow our stress and anger to fall upon, and many times we do it unconsciously. I truly believe your H is finding repentance and you must, at some point, find it in your heart to accept it. Just pray for God to show you how. I believe you can have such a wonderful M, better than you ever had if you both put the effort in. I believe that he does want to put the effort, but he is still scared as well. It is going to be hard, for both of you.
my heart goes out to you, and you know we all love you and want you to be happy. I believe you can and will be. I'm so sorry I couldn't get ahold of you this week. I should have stopped by.
(((Baby)))
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
