I am swimming in Soap Suds!

[MT35]

Good Evening Tomato! Thanks for stopping by!

how might you be this fine night?

[Babygirl]

hey girlie! is it snowing there? we had some heavy sleet last nite. hope you are hanging in there, our group so needs a vacation!

[WCW]

Love Must be Tough by Dobson.

[MT35]

Was a nice day. H called around 10:30 and then came out. Was going to load up the truck, but then I called the reclaim place and they were closed this weekend. So we didn't do that. I asked H if he was busy last night, and he said no why? I said I was just wondering. I didn't come right out and say because you didn't call me, but he told me I didn't call because it seems harder when we talk. I started to call, but then I didn't. I said I was surprised you didn't.

There was a tanker truck that had turned over 3 miles from the house, sat and watched the helicopter land and take off on the way to the bank. We sat and watched for about 40 min. It took them a long time to get the driver out of the tanker truck. we took the dogs with us so they could go for a ride and then we got them Arby's too. They enjoyed it but the dog got me dirty so I washed some clothes when we got home, H made a comment because I had taken my jeans off. I told him didn't think it was going to happen. I did pretty good. I said let me think how I want to say this, I sat for a bit. I told H that I want him, but I can't until he wants me. I said do you understand? H said I think so. I want you to only want to be with me, I can't do anything because I want you to just want me. I said that is all of it for everything that is going on with us. H said I understand. Later on something was said, and I said you can fix it you know. I know he knew what I meant, didn't really say anything.

Not that it stopped him from trying. But I felt better that he knew where I stand at least.

We ended up going to another town in MO. H needs to get new glasses and I need to use up my medical reimbursement before the end of the year, so we went down there to the mall to do that, but they didn't have any appointments, so he made one for 11:00 tomorrow. We had a great time went different places in the mall. We went and ate and then we came home. We were in Sears and H was looking at the TV's and said, you will have to bring the TV up from the basement, I said Why? H said because if I move into an apartment, I will probably take the TV with me. I said I think I will just move the one from the bedroom, it is much lighter!
After we got home, H said he would get some more clothes tomorrow. We hugged and kissed a few times when H left. As he was driving out he stopped and said, Do you want me to call or not? I said it is up to you. I said you don't have too tonight if you don't want to.

I watched the movie tonight Kel, it was a good one for reflection.

Hope everyone had a great day.

[MT35]

No snow, they are calling for some on Sunday night! YUCK! I will mail it to you KEL, with some dry ice! LOL.

[MT35]

Thanks WC- After I read some reviews I figured that was it.

[MT35]

Something I don't understand, H keeps asking or saying you are having fun aren't you? I said yes, It was great today. I thanked him for a good day and H tells me thank you. H did this Tuesday night and before he left on Thanksgiving.
I am not the one who decided we weren't having fun together anymore. That is his thing. That we stopped having fun. I think he stopped having fun, but I never did.

He was still talking today about going to the car auction in Arizona in january.

[kelaaron]

MT-wasn't the movie neat to really just reflect and see that what is meant to be is.....

Anyway you did great today. Of course he is asking. He has put you through the ringer and whether you like it or not, he for a while, will really wonder if you want to be with him, or if it is just a comfort thing. Probably because he thinks if you actually did that to him, he wouldn't stick around. Make it like dating again. You can do that. Be his girlfriend. Sounds like you have a good head start on it. Maybe I was on your shoulder today. LOL

Have a good night and enjoy the mall tomorrow if you go.

[MT35]

Thanks Kel, I was thinking of you when I was telling him, I need him to just want to be with me.

H just called me, it was short and sweet. H asked if I was OK, I said yes. I asked how the rest of his evening was, and H said it was ok I guess. When he says that, I feel like if it isn't good why are you there? I do think he is at OW's house. I think he went out to the truck to call me. I am not sure where else he would be. I asked if he was watching TV, he said not at the moment. I told him I was watching The Santa Clause, on TBS.
I told him to have a good rest of the night and to sleep well.

[Babygirl]

hey girl, its snowing here really pretty, has been since 9, not sticking tho. saw 18 deer tonite!

i am wondering if your H asks u that to have you ask him to come back. something to think about.

call me tomorrow if you need too.

love ya girlie