Was a nice day. H called around 10:30 and then came out. Was going to load up the truck, but then I called the reclaim place and they were closed this weekend. So we didn't do that. I asked H if he was busy last night, and he said no why? I said I was just wondering. I didn't come right out and say because you didn't call me, but he told me I didn't call because it seems harder when we talk. I started to call, but then I didn't. I said I was surprised you didn't.
There was a tanker truck that had turned over 3 miles from the house, sat and watched the helicopter land and take off on the way to the bank. We sat and watched for about 40 min. It took them a long time to get the driver out of the tanker truck. we took the dogs with us so they could go for a ride and then we got them Arby's too. They enjoyed it but the dog got me dirty so I washed some clothes when we got home, H made a comment because I had taken my jeans off. I told him didn't think it was going to happen. I did pretty good. I said let me think how I want to say this, I sat for a bit. I told H that I want him, but I can't until he wants me. I said do you understand? H said I think so. I want you to only want to be with me, I can't do anything because I want you to just want me. I said that is all of it for everything that is going on with us. H said I understand. Later on something was said, and I said you can fix it you know. I know he knew what I meant, didn't really say anything.
Not that it stopped him from trying. But I felt better that he knew where I stand at least.
We ended up going to another town in MO. H needs to get new glasses and I need to use up my medical reimbursement before the end of the year, so we went down there to the mall to do that, but they didn't have any appointments, so he made one for 11:00 tomorrow. We had a great time went different places in the mall. We went and ate and then we came home. We were in Sears and H was looking at the TV's and said, you will have to bring the TV up from the basement, I said Why? H said because if I move into an apartment, I will probably take the TV with me. I said I think I will just move the one from the bedroom, it is much lighter! After we got home, H said he would get some more clothes tomorrow. We hugged and kissed a few times when H left. As he was driving out he stopped and said, Do you want me to call or not? I said it is up to you. I said you don't have too tonight if you don't want to.
I watched the movie tonight Kel, it was a good one for reflection.
