Another wife hit by the bomb #3

[Tawnya]

{{Beth}}} Thanks for checking in with me..I appreciate you more than you know We have to find a way to find each other at some point in alt universe land

No..no good GAL activities this evening, I worked until like 7 and then got some dinner for the kids and I and now I'm home, gonna have to let the dog out for a bit..so another boring evening LOL! It's ok tho..gotta get up early for work in the a.m., so off to bed early for me

Sigh..had another relationship convo with hub today, which was kinda a bummer..nothing new came out of it, but, after he'd been so sweet and actually sounded happy to talk to me on the phone yesterday when I talked to him and we had dinner and stuff, he was even nice when we had our relationship talk, to be honest. It was just a bummer because I was hoping he was at least re-thinking in some way some part of this because of his change in attitude..but it doesn't seem like it from the convo..

Still talking about needing a separation agreement before he would move out, and wanting to do everything amicably. He asked me to sit down and state what I wanted and him to state what he wanted, but I said I wasn't gonna do it and let him write it up and then I would look it over or we could do it together, but I didn't want it and don't want to do it..so it's in his hands to get that written up/started/whatever..

I cried way too much during our convo..definitely not db'ing I know, but whatever..it's done now and is what it is..I talked to him later and wanted him to know that, while I believe our marriage is still workable and that I, of course, don't want the divorce, I didn't want him to think I was some little doormat that would curl up if everything didn't work the way I wanted..and he said he knew that..so hopefully he does..

The talk just really made me depressed, but I just read a thread that you actually linked to Beth, about a few people who had spouses saying such similar stuff than ours and now are back together and going strong..so I appreciated that link and feel better about what I'm doing for standing.

I've been reading the Bible and praying a lot, but have stepped it up this week, and have begun to walk around the room my hub is staying in, of course while he's at work, and just reading the Bible out loud..it's really very neat to do..reading the verses on Charlene Cares that they have and just reading thru Psalms or whatever I am reading..it definitely helps

Hugs and thank you for checking in with me

Tawnya