It was late for me last night. Sorry I wasnt around. I know how you feel. I really do know how you feel.
There was a point when I felt that I could either keep going for ever, wishing and hoping or I would force myself to get it over with. Irrelevant of the recent developments, and you know how much I loved my H, when I decided I was going to quit, a weekend in early June, I felt better. The pressure was not there any more. I guess that is when true detachment happened. I believed I was over with him. So, I understand if you feel the need to "kill" your love. But, take it easy, no hurry, take it day by day. Your mind and heart must be at the same place...
I am glad you had a peaceful day yesterday, enjoy your kids... Love K
Took the kids to the mall today, guess I have a death-wish or I really am a martyr We got up there at 8:45 a.m. so all the good stuff was gone. We really only wanted one thing, a giant star wars lego set at Target on sale for $59 instead of $99.
Nathan wanted to buy it for his dad for his birthday in 3 weeks. We always buy Dan some kind of kid-centered gift, last year it was some transformers...he likes it though, makes it special for him and Nate especially to play with Dan's birthday presents
As I said it was sold out so instead we got some Christmas decor. Got a string of lights to put up in the kids' bedroom window, with a remote-control outlet device. The one outlet in their room (grr....older houses!) is behind their dresser, so to plug in the lights each night you'd have to move the dresser. So I got the remote control so the kids can turn the lights on/off themselves. Also got each kid a Disney ornament to add to their "Disney Tree"--a 3 foot tree we put up in the play room that is entirely disney ornaments.
Bought some gifts for my nieces for Christmas at Toys R Us. It was a pretty productive morning but it is already one, just got home, and need to clean up!
That is the one good thing about not going with Dan to his family Thanksgiving tomorrow--I will have 12 uninterrupted hours to clean and organize the house and work on the project for my night class. Sounds boring but I am sooo looking forward to it!
Guess this is more journaling than anything...let's see H did call me twice today. First time to tell me his mom offered to look for that Star Wars Lego set for us. I missed the call, ok I ignored the call while at the mall, but when I called him back that is what he said he had called for. I told him we were already out at the mall and it was sold out. Then H called about 2 hours later, I was messing with my ringtone settings when he called, I thought I pushed his ringtone button on accident so I turned it off, then realized I had actually just hung up on H! Oops...He called back though. Said "Thanks for hanging up on me!" I told him it was an accident, he said his mom was out shopping now and would look for that Lego.
Gee, isn't that what he told me the FIRST time he called?
Boy am I jealous! I have a sort of reverence for the Mouse....
When we lived in Sierra Madre (North/East of Pasadena), I got a So Cal annual pass to Disneyland. Nate was 2....we went 18 times in 9 months. I actually scheduled it on the calendar every 2 weeks. I loved it as much as he did, if not more...
Nate and I went again last November (4 days after I caught H w/OW, so it put a damper on things! ), I got us tickets to Mickey's Christmas party. I am already planning to take Nathan and Gigi (Sydney) in about 6 months, it will be her first time. Dan wants us to make it a 'family' trip....we'll see.
As per the tree, I joined the Disney 'ornament of the month' club after Nathan turned 1, we got a couple dozen ornaments so the tree is rockin'
The best way to get back at him is by finding happiness without him. Prove to him what a mistake he made. It will eat him up knowing he made a mistake. Don't let angry or vengence cloud your heart. Afterall, he is in your life through your kids for a long while.
It was funny, when I worked for the Mouse people used to ask me for my business card just because it had Mickey on it. They could care less about me..... I actually have a Cinderella's castle sitting on my desk made out of my coworkers' business cards. I do have to say that working for the Mouse is quite different than visiting a park. That being said, it was the best job I ever had.
Wish I could work for the Mouse. Except a coworker of mine did an internship under the park in Orlando and said it took the magic away to see characters with their heads off and seeing the people underneath...
Anyway just as I decided I wanted as little as possible to do with H today, he called again (3rd time)/ Wanted to know if he should pick up a movie for tonight. I told him sure the kids can do whatever he wants them to do....
It is his night, I am not helping him decide what to do.
I don't get it. His parents both have cancer,and you are going to stay home from their Thanksgiving dinner to prove some kind of point to your husband? What point is that? Is it more important than showing his parents that you care enough about THEM to be with them at a family gathering. You and your H need to be big enough as human beings to put aside your differences for the afternoon and eat a meal as a family.
I don't get it. His parents both have cancer,and you are going to stay home from their Thanksgiving dinner to prove some kind of point to your husband? What point is that? Is it more important than showing his parents that you care enough about THEM to be with them at a family gathering. You and your H need to be big enough as human beings to put aside your differences for the afternoon and eat a meal as a family.
We got up there at 8:45 a.m. so all the good stuff was gone. We really only wanted one thing, a giant star wars lego set at Target on sale for $59 instead of $99.
), I got us tickets to Mickey's Christmas party. I am already planning to take Nathan and Gigi (Sydney) in about 6 months, it will be her first time. Dan wants us to make it a 'family' trip....we'll see. 