Healing my Heart Part 6

[fightingirish]

(((gf & Lwb))) thanks for checking up on me. Im ok.

H called me about 11am and I asked him what his plans were for the day, and he said he didn't know. I said do you want to come to my mom's or not? He said only if you want me there.... ok, so I said yes it would be nice considering you missed a lot being away this summer, so yes.

We talked for about an hour and a half. But it was a good healthy talk. He is very insecure. More than I realized. I think I have grown so independant that he doesn't think I need him , which of course isn't true. But Over the summer things did change because I had no choice.

Anyways, he says he doesn't feel loved by me, that I just go through the motions and that Im just here for the kids sake. (yes sometimes I feel that way, but I didn't say that) What I did say was I feel unappreciated, and he needs to work on showing me that he does appreicate what I do, and that I will do the same.

the kicker is, he is SO upset that I actually called a lawyer.. He is scared I think, although I feel a little bad about it, it doesn't outway the good I think it did to make him maybe wake up and see im not fooling around this time.

He feels that he is more in love with me and that Im falling out of love for him. True or not, this is what he feels.

So I did say that we both need to make a conscience effort to be alone sometimes, to get a sitter and spend adult time just us. He agreed. I told him that that is what its going to take, us BOTH putting the effort in, not me putting in 80%.

more was said, but that was the jist of it.

He met me at my mom's and it was nice. We had a nice time.

The rest of the night was nice too. He told me that he couldn't be without me and the kids and that he knows he's not perfect, he wants a better life for us, and that's why he works so hard.



emotional day, but turned out ok.

Thanks again for your support my friends.

I don't know what I would do without you.