PS sorry this is selfish right now and i really dont care, I REALLY DONT CARE ABOUT ANY OF OUR H PAIN. whew that felt good lol!!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Hope, I will tell you this not to discourage you but just so you are aware, OW2 had a H(although he was why she turned to my H), WO3 and 4 both have boyfriends they were happy with. OW1 just wanted someone to pay her bills. So...
On the next note, yes I believe in the astro. I believe in the influences, I sit and watch as things shift with people. Yes people do feed off of each other, but I believe there is more than that. I don't know if anyone has seen the news today, but there have been major terrorist attacks in Mumbai, India, targeting Americans and British.
I too have wondered how much we all influence each other toward the negative, but how exactly can it be, when our S are not involved in these boards, and at least in our cases, the sh** has hit the fan all at once. Whatever...
Yes MT, Pluto, being the farthest away from the earth, has the slowest orbit and stays in each sign longer than any other planet. So it's influence lasts much longer. The influences can be felt for a time before and after the shift. While it was in Sag, the world has grown emmensly. We have globally become very materialistic. But things have started to change over the last two years. The economy is tanking everywhere, governments are being overthrown, even in our own country, people are looking for complete restructure of things. Yes while it was kinda just hanging around, things were good and stable or even growing. But as it has started to change it's sign, the world has seen much begin to happen to start us in a new direction. People are becoming much more open to spirituality, we are expanding and realizing that we have to work together globally. We have our first black president getting ready to take office. Big changes. New directions. That doesn't mean everything has to fall apart, just that they will be different than they were. Think of it like a full moon. Yes the moon is only full for one night each month. But when do things start to be noticed and commented maybe it is a full moon? A couple of days before and after usually. Does that make sense?
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If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
Hope, I know you had all the poise and strength that you possess yesterday! It is the hardest thing in the world to put on the smile and go on like nothing is wrong. It is so hard. Be strong, take care of yourself! Love you Hope!
Hope, morning sunshine. Having coffee, are you out shopping on Black Friday for that beautiful grandson of yours? Come have coffee with us. You did great yesterday, I just know it.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
I'm here with you my friends...and my coffee. My headache is gone and I'm not out shopping, yet. First time in years that I have not done the 5 am thing, just didn't have the energy for it this year.
Yesterday was the hardest day of my life. It was also one of the very best gatherings that H and I have ever had at our home. The boys both came early so the 6 of us sat around having a drink and watching the baby, who was all dressed up in the cutest little Dockers, button down shirt and holiday vest. All he needed was a pair of little round glasses. He was adorable. He also has just started to crawl, like within the last couple of days, so that was fun to watch him.
We got the food done and H worked his butt off. He loves to cook, but this year he took a lot more of the responsibility. He knew that I was worn out. My parents came and then we had dinner. It was ver nice, other than I had to struggle to keep from crying. At one point my mom and my 15yr old nephew were sitting and talking quietly in the dining room and I did start to cry a little. I just blamed it on having to put Max down last week. I had a handy excuse for being emotional. It was a wonder family day, but I was really ready for people to be gone when the last one left after 6.
I then fixed myself a drink, layed down on the couch and just cryed. Quiet, hot tears, like a faucet. H was there, we talked a bit, he knew I was crying and he said that he was sorry. I couldn't stop crying and I didn't want to talk much to him. He finally asked if I wanted him to sleep on the couch tonight, and I told him no. He went upstairs to the bedroom and I spent the night on the couch. I didn't sleep very well and it was morning before I knew it.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
I am sorry Hope. I am so glad your day with the family was wonderful. That is so nice, something to be thankful for! I have almost always done the early morning stuff too, but this year, don't even know who II am shopping for. I guess the not knowing is what is really getting to me this time of year. I hope you have a great day today, and you can get some things done that you want to.
The one thing that I told H last night was that I felt so bad about the OW's H. Everyone thought he was such a nut case, was acting so crazy, but it was because he knew the truth about what had been going on, and the rest of us refused to believe. I bought H's lies, I had doubts, but I believed in him.
He has apologized, more than once. He has held me and cried. He has told me that we will spend this next year trying to heal our marriage and us, and that he will be there for all of the support and love that I need. He said that all of this happened last February, and that he has been eaten up with guilt. Guess I can see that's true.
Ok, so the first thing that I did when I woke up this morning, whether it was right or not, I emailed the OW's H and told him that my H (his X best friend) had finally told me the truth about his relationship with her, and it was sexual. I told him that I was sorry and that I was ready to meet for lunch like he had wanted me to do 6 months ago. He knows how to get in touch with me if he wants.
I feel so badly for this guy. I now know why he was feeling so horrible, he new what the truth was, as did his W and my H. All of the rest of us bought into their lies and condemed the poor man. I don't want to rekindle any friendship with him, or compare stories or validate facts. I do want him to know that I believe in him, that he is a good man and I am truly sorry that this happened to us. He also has to know that our families will never again be friends.
We'll see where that takes us. It's closure to me.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
That sounds like something you needed to do Hope. I think it should be closure on this past year and will let you enter the new year with some needed HOPE and optimism.
