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Glad you found a way to cope a bit. I know the first 24 hours are he!! It does get a little bit easier.

The movies running through your mind, that takes a while to slow down, but it will bit by bit. I still get those flashes, but less and less. At first what I did that seemed to help was try to find something, however little that I could look forward to just a few hours ahead. Stupid stuff like, "tonight I get to watch ER." Then, when the movies of "us" started playing, I'd force myslef to think about that stupid show and that I was excited to see it. If you make yourself do this enough, you start to force yourself into the present moment, little by little. It is not foolproof, but it helps.

Thanks for reading my thread. I probably seem like a bit of a basket case. At least I feel that way pretty regularly.

Hang in there and keep posting.

Beth


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