Went to hubby's family for dinner tonight. It is hard playing happy around them when I am so miserable. I mourn for my past life, past happiness, past closeness with my husband. I want to recover from the pain. Maybe that is why I want him to go so badly. Maybe I think it will be easier if he is not around for me to hate all the time. Maybe I think I will not be so angry at his lack of trying to work on the marriage if he is not around.
We went to the drive through at Starbucks on the way home tonight. He stops there daily. The lady at the window knows him and was making small talk. She introduced herself to me and then asked him..is this your wife? It made me so angry. The OW works with him and I know they have went there together in the mornings when they got off work. All I could think about was the lady knowing that my husband had been there with her. A stranger I just met knows that my husband cheated on me. It made me feel pathetic.
M:38 H:42 T:20 M:19 D:18 S:17 MLC: Sometime in 2007 OW Bomb 1: 12/28/07 OW Online relationship 2: Spring 2009 Told him I wanted D: May 10, 2009 D final: 07/09/11
