Another wife hit by the bomb #3

[PositivelyMommy]

{{{{{Tawyna}}}}}

I know how you feel, I've been feeling really emotional lately as well. Don't know if it's the holidays or the moon or what???

I cried in the car while driving. I cry at the computer. It's kinda sad since I've been feeling strong for last couple of months. I guess it's to be expected.

Sorry, you were feeling sad but glad to hear you're doing something good with kids.
Are you still walking?

[Tawnya]

{{{PM}}} thanks for stopping by..glad to know I"m not alone in the sad fest..tho I'm sorry you've been having those days too..you are STILL strong and you are right, it's definitely to be expected my friend!

I haven't been able to walk in the past week, but I'd like to get out there today..it's been raining or cold or I've had crazy stuff going on keeping me gone until it's already really dark out..that's why I'm really looking for a treadmill..I'd love one and then it doesn't matter what time of the day/night it is

Tawnya

[Tawnya]

Well I just hopped on here to say HAPPY THANKSGIVING and one thing I am very thankful for is all of YOU who have been here to support me and cheer me and 2 x 4 me when needed

All in all today's been pretty good so far: I was up at same time hub was today (he usually leaves earlier than I have to work, but had to work early today)..so he comes upstairs while I'm eating and reading my email and is all nice and cheery like he use to be when I was up and he didn't know he'd be like "hi ya" and that's what he said..so I just said hey and then he asked me where we were eating tonight and I told him and said we could choose something closer to where he would be if we needed to and he said the one I chose should be fine and to call him when daughter was done working.

Then he sat out here while I was read my email on his work laptop checking on his work for the day..talked a bit about house stuff and then we left..

So it was a nice and surprising exchange..so I'll take it

Tawnya

[Sophie]

Well Tawnya..your day so far is like a breath of fresh air to read.

Happy Thanksgiving

[Tawnya]

Aww thanks {{{Sophie}}} IT was not bad..we went and met and ate and then hub had to get back to work..it was a long line to wait to eat so hub and son were getting a bit cranky about the wait..but otherwise it was good..hey..anytime I get to have coconut cream pie..it's a good day

Tawnya

[carpenter54]

(homer Simpson)....mmmmm pie!! LOL. Out with some friends...long islands are good...happy turkey day Tawnya!!

[Tawnya]

Aww thanks {{{carp}}} same to you my friend! Enjoy your evening

Tawnya

[VeronicaV]

Tawnya,

So much for my heading off to sleep. I am glad you had a nice dinner with the family.

Coconut cream pie, sounds good.

Beth

[VeronicaV]

Tawnya,

How are you today? Just got back from another run. I needed to chase off a bad mood. It seems to have worked, I feel like the endorphines are starting to kick into gear.

What are you up to tonight? Any good GAL activities planned? I am going to go rent a good movie and get some takeout.

Beth

[Tawnya]

{{Beth}}} Thanks for checking in with me..I appreciate you more than you know We have to find a way to find each other at some point in alt universe land

No..no good GAL activities this evening, I worked until like 7 and then got some dinner for the kids and I and now I'm home, gonna have to let the dog out for a bit..so another boring evening LOL! It's ok tho..gotta get up early for work in the a.m., so off to bed early for me

Sigh..had another relationship convo with hub today, which was kinda a bummer..nothing new came out of it, but, after he'd been so sweet and actually sounded happy to talk to me on the phone yesterday when I talked to him and we had dinner and stuff, he was even nice when we had our relationship talk, to be honest. It was just a bummer because I was hoping he was at least re-thinking in some way some part of this because of his change in attitude..but it doesn't seem like it from the convo..

Still talking about needing a separation agreement before he would move out, and wanting to do everything amicably. He asked me to sit down and state what I wanted and him to state what he wanted, but I said I wasn't gonna do it and let him write it up and then I would look it over or we could do it together, but I didn't want it and don't want to do it..so it's in his hands to get that written up/started/whatever..

I cried way too much during our convo..definitely not db'ing I know, but whatever..it's done now and is what it is..I talked to him later and wanted him to know that, while I believe our marriage is still workable and that I, of course, don't want the divorce, I didn't want him to think I was some little doormat that would curl up if everything didn't work the way I wanted..and he said he knew that..so hopefully he does..

The talk just really made me depressed, but I just read a thread that you actually linked to Beth, about a few people who had spouses saying such similar stuff than ours and now are back together and going strong..so I appreciated that link and feel better about what I'm doing for standing.

I've been reading the Bible and praying a lot, but have stepped it up this week, and have begun to walk around the room my hub is staying in, of course while he's at work, and just reading the Bible out loud..it's really very neat to do..reading the verses on Charlene Cares that they have and just reading thru Psalms or whatever I am reading..it definitely helps

Hugs and thank you for checking in with me

Tawnya