Beth thank you so much for stopping by. I have just fininshed reading your thread and share many of the same feelings. As a firefighter I do need to get some exercise. This has ben my bread and butter GAL. Have, muuch like Techguy, lost 50 lbs since this all started. The exercise is only thing that keeps me going some days. In fact I am in better shape now than I have been in a long time as I am able to push harder. Have even though of taking a kick boxing class just to punch something that won't get me in trouble:) Today, this week, has been hard. May seem small but I have not had contact with W for over 24 hrs now. Huge for me. I knew today would be hard so I stayed up all night at work to sleep most the day today. Maybe not the best coping skill but it worked for the most part. Still have the stupind thoughts of who she is with and what they are doing. I think this will be the hardest to get past, these thoughts. My C has said the same thing Techguy has said about staying in the now. It is hard to do. I tend to paly "movies" in my head of the past, present, and future. Living in the now is not so easy for me. I do catch myself and am able some of the time to talk myself into the now. It going to be a skill I need to work on. Glad everybody had a great Thanksgiving. Hope the rest of the weekend goes by fast and without too much pain. B
