mt-honey I know it is hard. You know what you want but he has to be able to give it to you completely and honestly or is it really worth it? Babe, I've had it great with H and I've had it crappy, and I've had it halfassed. Trust me on this, great is the only way to go. H and I have had sex over these last few months and it isn't what it was. I mean it is good sex, but that is all it is and I don't want that with him. Frankly, I don't want that with anyone.
You and I are in very different places in ourselves right now but I can tell you, I know the pain you are feeling. The uncertainty. I know because I waited for two years with OW there every day. Do you really want that? I think your selfesteem is pretty good now, but imagine yourself two years down the road if things continue as they are. Are you going to be a strong MT, a happy MT, a confident MT, or are you going to be a woman who wonders what she is worth and accepts any scraps that are thrown her way from H?
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
