I just got off the phone with my S11 - since he spends Christmas with me, he always spends Thanksgiving day with his mom - and he started talking about making our own Thanksgiving meal tomorrow...so, after I pick him up we're going to get that stuff to make dinner...which is really wonderful sounding to me - since I've always enjoyed making Thanksgiving dinner - and just had no reason to at all today...
Not only do I have a weekend with my boys to look forward to - I'll also have the fun of cooking with my S11 while my S2 runs around and keeps us entertained (he's such a beautiful, fun little boy). Now I've got to work on the menu...the one request my S11 had was to be in charge of garlic mashed potatoes...
So...now that I'm coming out of my own morning fog, here are some things I am grateful for today (and everyday):
My sons - the most beautiful boys in the world. My family - they are not perfect, but they are full of love and support. My friends - despite how little I've reached out to friends over the years, my truest friends have been there for me in ways I've never imagined anyone could be. My DB Friends - all of you...I would start naming you individually, but would hate to forget any one name - but all of you have helped me so much in the last five months.
Rain - it's just so soothing. Soccer - both playing it and having the respite of a few good matches on TV today. Pens - what would I do without a pen and a place to write something down. The computer/Internet - might sound strange to be grateful for these things - but they've given me access to something I never would have known existed before - the compassion and support of strangers - and access to a community of amazing people that want to work hard on improving themselves and their lives...I take heart in knowing that as we improve ourselves, we help improve the world around us...that, to me, is a tremendous source of hope. Work - in these difficult times around the country and the world, I'm grateful that I still find work... Home - along with the work comes the home...and having a roof over my head, and a space for my children to play - that's something I cannot take for granted. Words - what a gift to have words - to reach out over endless miles and receive the advice from so many kind, giving people. Sleep - when I get to sleep, I welcome the tranquil remove from my thoughts. Time - while it may just be a construct, something that we perceive and use to mark the necessity of change - time is a gift that always reminds me that any moment is not permanent...while I would love for some moments to last forever (like time with my boys), knowing that pain is evanescent always helps me get up and step into a new day.
I can't wait until tomorrow...and I'm so looking forward to heading over to my friend's house for dinner tonight...it will be good to be in the company of someone who has known me since I was 14...(and in my New Wave phase).
