I don't know what to advise you about your D17. She's probably very busy at her new college and may not have the time to keep in touch with her old friends as much. Is there a strong likelihood that the news will get back to her?
Addie, there is a chance that D17 (18 in a month )will not hear the gossip, but it makes me sick to imagine her reaction to such news...
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A friend of a friend is stayng with your H and OW? And he thinks he will be staying with your H and you?
precisely! Our friend from the Uni sent an e-mail asking if we can host the guy and show him around a little bit. H has written back "sure, no problem". Now he's going to stay with H and Spider. Really awkward.
Anyway, H came over today to help some more. And the first thing he did - he HUGGED me! He gave me a real long tight hug!! Actually, I was the first one to break the embrace. I asked if everything was ok and he said: I don't love her, you know. I didn't know what to say (my usual problem), my heart was pounding, finally I said: please, don't. And that was it. I feel that I may have lost a good chance to encourage him, but I was so afraid to spoil the moment...
Then later today I heard him on the phone telling someone that he couldn't sleep because of some "unpleasant conversation" yesterday late at night! I wonder, who did he talk to...
And finally, he started telling me again how he messed up his own life and mine, and how he's afraid it will end up badly (Spider "taking her own life" again? ). I didn't reply, but then I thought may be he's trying to open up and I'm not listening to him. So I asked him after a while, if he wants to talk about it. He said firmly: no.
I think, Kalni, you're right. I do have a chance. He is looking at me lovingly, speaks to me nicely and shows lots of attention and care. He definitely feels more and morev comfortable around me. But I was there before and I'm afraid to trust the signs of recovery.
Happy Thanksgiving (((everybody)))!
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
)will not hear the gossip, but it makes me sick to imagine her reaction to such news...
). I didn't reply, but then I thought may be he's trying to open up and I'm not listening to him. So I asked him after a while, if he wants to talk about it. He said firmly: no. 