Ive never posted to you before, but i can only relate to how you are feeling.
Im feeling these feelings as we speak. Its like we open ourselves up completely, and honestly and only to find out that they haven't been truthful at all, and then you begin to question everything. It can make you go mad.
Please don't dwell on it. It can eat you alive if you do. Unfortunately until they have proven that they can be trusted again, I don't know how to tell you to let that feeling go. I guess we just have to learn how to live with it for now, because what can we do. Hope and pray that they are doing the right thing and that he is being truthful with you.
It will get easier, I've been at this about almost 3 years, the hurt does get a tad better, but the trusting part I struggle with.
Its craziness, Ive been with H for 20 years, and feel the same as you.
Did he ever tell you why he felt this is the route he needed to go??
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
