Stage 2.25

[istherehope]

Hi Ali,

Thanks for checking in on me :). In reality it was no big deal that H was late as I knew he went in late in the morning, so was probably making up the time. I didn't ask him why he was late either. Yeah I shouldn't have texted or called. I used an excuse, just said I was about to start dinner wanted to know if I should hold off or if he was on the way. I think I'll try to have more trust next time, or if he is late use it as an opportunity to do a 180 and just welcome him home when he does arrive. I used to really freak out when he stayed out late, and there was no reason for me to act that way!

Last night we pretty much just ate dinner then went to bed. My positive was that H laid with his hand on my stomach. It was sweet. In bed now he seems to go out of his way to lay so that we are touching. This is an improvement even from last week. I've started to really up the affection level on my side too, in terms of "words of affirmation", and this also seems to be having an impact. I'm constantly complimenting him.

Anyway he'll be working from home today, then I am going to this invite only designer warehouse sale after work. I can't really afford to buy anything, but am bringing a coworker, and it should be fun as they have an open bar.

I also REALLY need to get my act together at work. I barely scraped by this last quarter, and my manager said that my case had to be raised up to VP level to still get me a bonus and such as my performance itself hadn't really merited it. So now I have to scramble to do something really great this quarter and even though things are so much better at home, I am pretty mentally exhausted and still having a hard time concentrating. Hope I can turn this one around!

Oh the large purchase after H's graduation (June) would be a gift for him to celebrate. He wants a Rolex. He was asking if he should get one. Again assuming this means staying together as previously he wanted us not to spend any money so that he could afford to move out. In my case it's actually good when we spend a lot of money as though it may hurt us in terms of debt etc., it shows that H is happy with "our" lifestyle again.

So Ali if you're reading this, Pluto is now in my sign. Any thoughts on this?

ITH