Well H stopped by around 5:00 he looked really pale. It was a fun night, we talked about a lot of different stuff, R not included. I had gotten a magazine from Barrett Jackson on the classic car auction that is January, it is on Speed TV. We started looking in the catalog of cars, and H started to figure out how far ahead for his days off corresponding to the auction. H said I could take my vacation that week and we would just miss the last day. H says how much does it cost to get in? H wants me to get find a hotel close by and see what it runs and how much it costs to get in if you aren't bidding. H marked it off on the calendar. Asked should be drive or fly?
He kept sitting next to me on the couch off and on. At one point H says, I shouldn't sit here, I am horny. I said you are always horny. Something he used to say all the time. H had brought some beer for tomorrow, he also brought in the keys to jeep so if the weather gets bad I have a 4x4. I had asked him about them when I talked to him today. H started drinking and I usually took about 2 drinks to each of his bottles, so I was sure not to get too drunk, just enough to feel a bit better. I had bought a game from QVC like a Wii or Xbox, but this just plugs into the TV, it has football, baseball, golf, tennis, and bowling. I had hooked it up on Saturday and played a bit. So H said lets try it. We played golf. And he was very "handsy" I guess would be the word. He kept helping with my swing! LOL. H said lets play naked golf. I just laughed. I ended up with his shirt on, but we didn't do anything else. I know he wanted to and I wanted to, but I wouldn't let myself. That was very hard, I wanted him to hold me. H asked if I had gotten any cheese, I said yeah. We ended up eating some Ham and cheese and dip. We played golf, and then bowling. Bowling wasn't as fun. H had stopped drinking. We went in and watched Wild Hogs or part of it, we danced to the part at the festival where the guy is up singing. It was a lot of fun. H asked a couple of times if I was having fun? I said yes. I could tell he was thinking of leaving. He was sitting on the edge of the couch. H finally said well, I guess I will go. H asked what time I was getting up, I said probably 5:30. I said do you want me to call you and wake you up? H said, No I think I will try and sleep in. I said OK. He took his new VW magazine and the Barrette Jackson catalog that came too. H asked again if I was OK, I said, I don't know. I said are you, H said No, but that is OK. I said no it isn't. I wanted to say, you know how to fix this. But I didn't say anything. H said I will leave on a good note. I said OK. We hugged for a long time, H kissed me good bye and he hasn't done that for a long time. We hugged some more and kissed some more. I walked out on the deck and told him to sleep well, and H left. I am OK right now. I didn't ask where he was staying. He maybe with her, but I think since he took the magazines he isn't, but who knows. His bag with his stuff was in the backseat of the truck, I think because he went back and got the keys to the jeep and I heard him unzip it to get them. I am trying not to assume where he is at. I hope he isn't with her. I know he had lunch at the plant he said they had their turkey dinner today, and it wasn't bad. I know he probably went and saw her, but I will stop imagining things.
Anyway that was my evening. It was very nice. I had fun and so did he. He just has to choose to make a decision himself.
Hope all have a wonderful day tomorrow! And a peaceful night getting there.
