I just decided to read your sitch. I am not here for the same reason you are, but I wanted to tell you that 15 years ago, I was WAW (technically not M at the time). I was not happy with me, H was never around, I felt like a maid, cook, and someone that was expected to sit in the apartment and wait for him. I ended up having an A that almost split us up. I actually did move out. For about 5 hours. Was setting up my new place and said "what the He** are you doing?" Went back with some excuse to be there, and never left again. At that point, I didn't tell him, I want to come back, I just didn't leave. Things still were really not great, but then I found out I was pregnant. My H changed a lot. I changed a lot. Things were really good for awhile. We have had our ups and downs. H went to Paramedic school and in a year, we spent 1 whole day together. I became very independent. That led to a lot of difficulty when school ended and he met OW2 (she needed him and I didn't), which created about 2 years of strife and aggravation. To this day, my H tells everyone that P school will ruin your life. We never got it back quite like it was before. Up, down, good, bad, EA's and now MLC and I am still here. I almost made that mistake once. If it happens again, I will be very sure that I am doing it for the right reasons and not just because I was lonely, hurt, and not having my needs met. Read Dancing Queen's thread. It is an amazing story.
Somewhere around here too is my whole story. LE can probably find it cuz I have no clue. But mine and MC's show what D can do to children. Please be sure you have done everything before you decide to do anything. Maybe he can help. I'll ask him.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
