Is there something similar available for LBH? And I do not mean those almost real plastic dolls...
Beth,
You are right about this week. This one and the last two weeks in Dec will be rough for most of us on this board. Even if you are busy like me, once the action around you stops, you realize how lonely you feel. That is when I turn here and hopefully find something encouraging to read.
I will be checking in here quite often over the next few days as well. With my W gone for 2 weeks, I have more time than I was hoping for, but as far as the R is concerned, that might not be the worst thing that could have happened.
AN
M43 W45, M17 S9 D6 Bomb: 11/11/08 EA: 10/26-12/31/08 ? Retrouvaille: 2/13-2/15/09 Healed, but still heading for D My situation
So H's pattern since I have been applying the LRT has been to contact me once every week to ten days. Today is the ten day mark and nada.
Of course his silence is adding to the sadness surrounding the holiday. Now it is getting quiet in my office. I will leave soon and go for a run (even though it is pretty cold and windy). Man I want to get through the holdiays.
I know better than to get my hopes up but did it anyway. It's so easy to know H won't be calling to say, oops, I goofed, can I come home now, just because it's the holidays. But knowing it and really accepting it are two very different things.
{{{Beth}}} I hear you..the day is not over yet tho my friend..I guess, hope for the best but try not to put your expectations into overdrive..but you, like me, at least KNOW that it is in your nature to have your expectations up, so you can try to talk yourself "down" from it (at least a little!)
I need to get out and walk today myself..I may just go do it now..which is a weird time to do it for me..break out of my routine I guess
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
I have made a deal with myself. Every time I cry or spend more than 30 seconds feeling sorry for myself, it will cost me a run or a workout. With the way I have been feeling lately, I should have abs of steel in no time.
Just got back from a run and the endorphines are doing their thing, so I feel okay. Funny how when life is great, endorphines make one feel giddy but when one is sad, the best they can do is level out the mood to comfortable. Well, I'll take it.
Time to do the crunches and the weight lifting. Got to keep looking better and better. I finally am back to my normal weight and feeling good about that.
Also, I have been trying to remind myself that the H I miss has been gone for a long time, not just since August when he physically left. As painful as the separation is, it was worse when he was here but not with me. If I am honest, I cried a lot then, too.
{{Beth}} OH man..dunno if I am ready to make that deal with you and myself LOL..tho it's a good deal and I will have to think about it!
I went for a walk today, which was good..tho I only did once up and back..I have done something to my back, NO idea what the heck I did..and every once in a while this happens and it hurts for a day or 2..so walking like I did was not helping anything LOL! But..it was good to get out and get my endorphins pumping!
Tawnya
Me:39 H:40 D18/S12 M20/T21 Bomb 10/11/08 One Two Three Four
Beth Abs of steel.....that was funny. I think I need something similar promise to myself. Don't they have 'Bun of steel'? I can see you are much more at peace now. I am happy for you. Please keep up the good PMA.
NW626
Me:33 STBXW:38 S:3 It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you fight the fight....!!
Thanks for being there. I am more at peace tonight. I lose sight of the importance of remaining present in the moment. I get all sad when I imagine a future without H, which is stupid because I cannot possibly know the future.
I know the run made all the difference, I can feel it. That's why I made the deal with myself.
Buns of steel, yes, that is a product out there. Maybe I should work on those, too, hmmmm....
