The good news - I've spent a few wonderful days with H, he was helping me with my solo show. He'd come early in the morning and two of us would go and work together installing my art work. It felt great to be around him all day long(even though it wasn't so great to watch him leaving afterwards). At one point I had to go and fetch something from our friends' house. They were very supportive of me, refused to meet OW and stated their opinion clearly (you're losing your family, you idiot). Understandably, H stopped communicating with them and was annoyed by their position. I thought there is no way he'd enjoy visiting them ,so I've told him to wait for me. It would havew taken me a minute. Instead, H decided to come too. We went in and spent there forty minutes, had some cofee and a nice chat. In the evening my friend (my BFF) called to tell me to hold on and not to give up on him and that she could see our togetherness, it's still there. Later that day H started telling me that he can see now how selfish he was/is and that he's disgusted with himself (I didn't respond). He was not in a hurry to go home and when it was time to part our ways in the subway, his train came first but he didn't leave! He waited with me for my train to arrive. I felt like we were dating again. H was very sweet and seemed to enjoy my company a lot. Looked at me in a special way... Today we didn't see each other (I had to spend a day at my mom's) and he called me to decide on the time we meet tomorrow. And then - bad news!- he told me that a friend of a friend from the Uni (where we both used to teach) is coming to stay overnight at his (his and OW!) place. Now, we never told anybody there, we were afraid that our D17 would find out, she's still in touch with our friends from the campus. I was devastated! First of all, I dont want her to find out from somebody else or via e-mail. Then I felt that as long as she doesn't know, it's not over yet. He's hurt me and it's done, all right, but he hasn't hurt his only child! Not yet that is. When I asked H what's going to happen now, he said: well, I don't know. I can ask him (the visitor) not to tell anybody about OW(!). I've told him, it's ridiculous. I asked, why couldn't he say NO to the guy (after all "we" could be uncomfortable with him staying over). H said, yes, I should have said no, but it's too late now, he's on his way. I'm afraid, I've lost it a little bit. I didn't yell, but I was very upset and not friendly at all...H sounded upset too. What am I to do now? Should I just call D17 and tell her that her Daddy has been cheating and lying for two years and her Mom has been covering his lies? Or should I leave it to God?
Am I overreacting?
I was so happy until he called...
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
