I have made a deal with myself. Every time I cry or spend more than 30 seconds feeling sorry for myself, it will cost me a run or a workout. With the way I have been feeling lately, I should have abs of steel in no time.
Just got back from a run and the endorphines are doing their thing, so I feel okay. Funny how when life is great, endorphines make one feel giddy but when one is sad, the best they can do is level out the mood to comfortable. Well, I'll take it.
Time to do the crunches and the weight lifting. Got to keep looking better and better. I finally am back to my normal weight and feeling good about that.
Also, I have been trying to remind myself that the H I miss has been gone for a long time, not just since August when he physically left. As painful as the separation is, it was worse when he was here but not with me. If I am honest, I cried a lot then, too.
