No longer pedaling uphill...I'm just coasting now!

[Amy M]

Hey, Tawnya!!! It's quiet here today so it's not too bad!! And, I have the next 4 days off...ha-ha-ha!!!

I've had a couple of disagreements with H over S6 and his attitude/behavior in the past couple of days. Those frustrate me more than anything. H explained to me last night that the issues are likely related to an injury that S6 received on Saturday night.

Now, I'm not sure how the two are related at all...the scrape on S6's face occurred when he ran into a fence playing chase with friends in the dark! He broke his glasses, and the store had to order the new frames. So, he's got a scrape and no glasses. But, he's been angry and sad (actually crying a lot) every night this week. Hmmmm...he hasn't mentioned the scrape at all since Saturday night!

In the 2nd place, I'm not sure why H thinks it's such a big deal anyway...he's not even seen the scrape...how can he comment on the severity of it?

Could it be that S6 is down a little cause it's the holidays, the annual trip to my Grandmother's, his birthday tomorrow, and his dad is living in another place and has apparently decided that life without me and without the kids 66% of the time is better than life in our house with us? Surely not...I mean, afterall, S6 has a scrape next to his eye!

I was so mad last night I actually told the man that I was sorry I had mentioned it and that I would be dealing with the issues my children were facing on my own in the future. Then, I hung up on him!

I did text later to apologize...just for the harsh words...not for the disagreement or for my concern for my child, and he responded reiterating that the injury was likely the cause...and that I "shouldn't be concerned."

WOW!!! The more time that passes, the less I like him!

Other than that, he's coming by to drop off the b'day present for S6 this afternoon before he picks the kids up. We got a joint gift, and since H had to put it together last night (mind you he's known what he was getting for at least a week now), he was late calling the boys. Then had the nerve to be irritated at me because I told him that he'd have to call the house phone since i was on the cell when he called 30 minutes later than his time slot. That's what started the argument, I guess. When I told him that I needed him to call the house phone, I said, "Hey, H, can I get you to call the house phone. I wasn't expecting your call this late. I need you to talk to S6...he's having a tough time tonight." H said, "Why do I need to call the other phone?" I said, "Cause I'm on this one." He actually said something like, "Well, I'm only late calling cause I had to put together the b'day gift. I guess I could have left that to you to do. You should be thankful." To which I replied, "I am thankful...I just don't have time to talk to you now because I wasn't aware you'd be calling, and I'm on the phone with a friend."

How completely stupid that was!! The rest of the argument ensued after he talked to the kids and I got back on the phone.

At any rate, I'll meet him to help unload the gift. We are putting it in the spare room, so, he'll see the boxes of his things stacked. I don't know if he'll mention them or not.

Tomorrow, I'm fixing lunch...he'll be over with the boys at 11:00, and the boys and I will be in the car ready to leave by 1:00. So, 2 hours tops together as a family. I hope that will go okay.

S6 did finally talk to me a little last night. He wanted to know who we knew that was divorced and whether or not there was anyone in our family with a divorce. I'm careful when I talk on the phone, but I wondered after we talked if he hadn't overhead me mention to someone the settlement that I received on Thursday. The timing of this sad spell might be related to that or it might be related to his birthday and Thanksgiving...I don't know for sure. But, I was glad he finally talked about it a little, and we know more divorced people than he realized after we discussed it.

So, I'm good...I'm still in my happy place, but I am definitely beginning to really question the choice I made so many years ago. Surely, he was a different person then...cause if I had it all to over again now, I'm thinking I would not consider a 2nd date much less a marriage!!!

I hope everyone has a decent Thanksgiving. Remember to focus on what you are thankful for rather than what things are wrong in your life! We do all have so much!!!! I'm reminded of that daily, and you all are on my list for sure!!!

Love you!
Amy