ah yes, pride. the killer of opportunity. i believe its that same pride that doomed any chance of my STBX working to save our R. same pride that prevented her from admitting any fault in our difficulties.
there is so much to feel. and thats something that i've been missing for so long that i didnt even know i was missing it. sure, i felt boredom, some murky depression, but the sharp feelings of pain, the surprise of happiness, the fun shock of catching a beautful womens eye - those i feel now. and even though it hurts, i'll take it. the good outweighs the bad on most days.
and no matter what, i now know that the bad will be followed by the good. so even during the bads, i have something to look forward to.
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".
