It urks me that I am the one that has to seek out counseling becuase of his addictions. I guess that is one of the reasons that I havent done so yet.
It makes me feel like I am the one that has issues. But I know I live a healthy life.
A person that posts here named yellowrose has had success with her M and h returning. She posted me last night in the MLC forum and said that my H's cycling is very similar to what she remembers her H doing just before he came out of his crisis.
I sure hope and pray that that is what is happening here with my H also. He is cycling more than ever right now.
It scares me because I am afraid that I will loose it and blow up at him the next time I see him. When ever that will be.
I feel like he has no cares in the world for me. He warned me last night he would be too busy to make plans but he wasnt too busy to make plans with his cousin and go out partying all night.
Well, I will seek out counseling soon becuase now I realize that I have to. This is all driving me nuts.
Today, I still havent heard from my H and he knows that I dont have work due to a 5 day vacation. I am going to go get my oil changed at one of those instant oil change places.
The sad part is that my H has been saying for a month now that he would do it. He obviously hasent even though he is a good mechanic and even opened his own auto shop last winter in one of his buisness leaps. It lasted two weeks and shop was closed.
Wow, what am I being put through here. It is torture. TIPPER
