Baby, at times it seems this will never go away, but you can USE this pain to move your life forward. A great book is "the spiritual divorce" because it teaches you to use D as a catalyst for a new and better life. You've been on this trial by fire as long as me (2005), hon, youve' given it your all, and maybe now is time to accept it is over and forge a new good live for you.
The person I married is gone, the good memories are in my heart, the good man that loved me. The zombie that now looks like my good H is someone I would never marry nor think to have in my life, a man who wouldn't care less for me and someone I wouldnt' date if my life depended on it. We had good times and those times I'll cherish in the back of my mind. This new stranger isnt' my H and will never be him again, so I move on to the next segment of my life, because there still so much you and I can do, so much for us up ahead. You are in my prayers honey)))))))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
