I am swimming in Soap Suds!

[kelaaron]

MT-The house will be smelling great soon. I can't wait to get started but this is more impt right now.

Yes you want him back. But if he comes back today, it won't be any different tomorrow. This is something that is going to take time. I have recently been accused of sitting on my ass in my own sitch and even though the person is at least half right, when dealing with MLC, it is hard to do much else sometimes. Plus for me, I have learned SO much about myself lately, my desires, my dreams, where I want to go, that I have to sit for a little while and then act in one way or the other. For you, I think it is time to sit a little too. You have done sooooo much in the last couple of weeks with the boundary and now this. I keep thinking about a movie I rewatched on TV about 2 weeks ago. Peggy Sue Got Married. Watch it. It reminded me about 2 things, things are not always what they seem to be from the outside, and no matter how hard we try, if something is suppossed to happen, it will. No matter what you do to stop it or make it happen. So honey, go rent it today and watch it while you are cooking.

You are going to cry ALOT right now. H will too for a while. It is like a death. A death of what you knew. I reminded LE last night of something he said about his own sitch. If it is to be, it will be a NEW M. The old one is dead. So let it go and see what happens. Enjoy dinner tomorrow. It could be the new beginning starting to unfold. You never know, but the more we try to control things, the more out of control they will become. Trust me on that one. I always forget that and it is never until I just go with things for a while that they seem to fix themselves. Maybe not the way I wanted them fixed but the way they should be.

PMS is over (Thank God) but I'll still cry with you if you need me to.