{{Davidswife}} You are so lucky to have family in town. I don't have anyone so it will be a quiet one for us. Now I know why some people don't like the holidays. It's the expectations and the fact that you miss your spouse like heck and nothing you can do.
Yes, I feel like I am dealing with a child and the deceit won't stop hurting eventhough I am expecting it and it comes anyway. I thought I could handle the no honesty because I am trying not to have any expectations. The fact is, I didn't ask him why he was not going to be here. He lied outright. I never question him anymore (not for months) but he just likes to lie anyway. I think it makes it easy for him to get away from us if he doesn't have to tell me the truth or admit to himself in words that he is seeing OW. He just doesn't want to deal with consequences at the moment.
Feeling much better today because I got measured at the gym and has shrunk again, big boost to my ego. Bodyfat down below 26%, a HUGH deal for me who has always been a little heavy. I know I am also getting fitter and can do more. Also the adrenalin rush is good for the mood.
Had a full day's work to take my mind off H. Trying very hard not to think about him and his lying ways. Had sleeping problems last night but maybe it's a good thing I don't see him because I don't want to be reminded that he is a lying, no good person.
Will try to catch up with friends this weekend to make the weekend a bit more special and different for the kids.
I know about the C, my C is saying, let's just ride it out and then see what happens. I will see him next week and talk. Don't know what other C's do so can't compare if he is helping the situation or not. What does everyone else's C's do?
Me:39 H:40 S:9 D:7 First Bomb ONS:June 07 Second Bomb OW: March 08 Separated: March 08 M:15 yrs T:18 yrs H deep into A with OW Achieved ACCEPTANCE May 30, 09
