For the Guy with Kids and a WW Vinte (20)

[hopeful4her]

Side note.

On the way home tonight, I kept thinking about what the wife has put me through. Thought back two years ago, when it all started.

As far as I can tell, she has had THIS affair, which started as an EA. I busted her texting some things to another guy before that. Someone she met through her office at the time. He had done the EGF that she worked with SEVERAL times. Christmas time two years ago, I found the texts talking about how she couldn't stop thinking about his lips, and how they taste and him back to her, how he should have gone to the door and locked it, type of stuff.

When I confronted her about it, she told me she had given him a simple kiss when he had given her a Christmas gift and they were just playing around with the texts. She said it was nothing. I took her word for it, but was still angry enough to call the guy the next day and threaten him to stop the messaging. All he could say was ok. She found out that I called him a couple days later and told me how embarrassed she was that I did that.

Then last year, when I found out about this current guy, snooping and finding emails to ANOTHER guy she met on the internet. Him and her talking about having to take cold showers after their last conversation. Another that said to him how she missed his lips and that they were all she could think about and others about possible meets when he comes into town again. Her "cowboy".

I know of two others that I could not find "evidence" of actual meets, but emails about the possibilities of it.

When she was sick last year and in the rehab, she was "honest" with me and told how OM had been visiting her, too. They were "friends". He texted her once while I was there with her. He told her that he wished her and her family a happy Thanksgiving. My face showed my anger.

"I can't believe how jealous you are of him" is what she told me. Always trying to play it off. Two weeks later, the truth was coming out more.

I can't believe I keep trying. Why do I want to be with someone who has done this? As deep as she has gotten with this OM, I had almost forgotten about these other MFer's.

This is what I'm supposed to live with? This is the woman that I want?

I just don't know. That night that we talked for a long time, when she found out how I texted OM a month ago, she said how she repented for what she had done. And that made it all right. In her mind, at least.

She had repented.