Ever-- You keep the hope...but it is a hope for new, better things. I see from your date that you have been at this a long, long time. And the world keeps turning, all the while.
Maybe it is time to look in a new direction.
Now, I remember reading advice like this and wanting to scream - this isn't the way it is supposed to be! It isn't what I want! I worked to hard - for what?!
I'll tell you what - for YOU!
Now, keep working just as hard, for you, a new you. You can do it.
So many of us here have done it, because we've had to. You will too, with time and focus on the good things.
Use Thanksgiving to look at all that is positive and right in your world right now...