I feel so insecure and afraid of my H giving up on our M again.
He acts loving to me and treats me well when we are together.
However, I feel him distancing in a major way.
This last week was really bad in terms of the amount of quality time we spent together. He was at the bar all but one night.
Since last friday, I have hardly seen him.
We went to a play at 8 on friday, but before that for 4 hrs he was at the bar drinking.
On sat. as soon as I got up out of bed he took off in my car since he left his truck home the night before. He said he had about 2hrs of work. He then called me 3 hrs later and said that he was gonna help his buddy move. Then at 4 he text me to let me know him and his buddy were gonna be at the bar and that he could pick me up if I wanted to join them. I said no cuz I was tired. He said he would be home after just a few drinks. Finally at 8 I text him to let him know I needed my car. So he came home and we watched a movie and fell asleep half way through. Not a great day.
Then on sunday, he actually spent the morning with me here and we had to bowl a double header from 3:30-8:30. After our bowling was done he had a band practice. He said he would be over afterwards. I went home and fell asleep on the couch waiting for him. He woke me up at 1 to tell me I needed to go up to bed so I could get up for work. I couldnt believe it was 1 when he showed up. I never asked him what was up because I was so tired and a bit mad.
Then on monday, he plays with his band in a gig at the bar. So he text me to let me know they were gonna play later than usual. I showed up at 10:40ish and they still wernt playing. So we got to talk for about 10 min. before they started and I let him know I was gonna leave before they finished since it was so late. He thanked me for coming and gave me a kiss good bye.
Today, I got home from work and at 5 my H text me and said He was busy with his kiawanas meeting and getting ready to hold the turkey day race and that he would probably not see me tonight. I never text back.
I am afraid, that he is lying about tonight and that he just doesnt want to see me.
I am so afraid, because every winter he gets depressed and he hates the holidays so much these past few yrs. Every time he has left our M, he starts by distancing himself for a few weeks and it often happens when the winter comes.
I dont know what to do or say. But I am scared. TIPPER
