Hi KenF: You're so very right- I cannot - and never will be able to figure out where she's coming from - but I'm not going to try to do that anymore. The stuff I'm reading now, I'm reading for me - so that I can learn what I have to learn - so that I can understand why I was in this type of relationship - and why it's been so difficult to let go - and move on with my life the way I want to.
I don't expect anything from her anymore - really nothing at all - I hardly even recognize her eyes when I see her - which is also very strange.
It's going to take a while to heal - I can see that - but I know that I have to work on that - focus on healing, moving on, and taking care of my sons.
Changing the habit of a long relationship - even just for myself - will take time.
