Thanks for checking in. Today is a down time. Actually, this week is pretty rough. I know that is tru for everyone here.
H and I should be in Quebec right now enjoying our annual non-Thanksgiving, Thanksgiving celebration. I thought I was doing a lot better and feeling a lot stronger and that I would be okay this week.
Turns out I am really sad and struggling to distract myself. I have cried about three times at work today. Fortunately, I can close my office door and no one knew.
Now I am heading home to the big empty house. I will try to distract myslef and will stop for some comfort food on the way.
It is hard when there is no one to hug you while you cry. I know that sounds needy and pathetic, but it has been a long time since someone just held me while I cried about this. Being strong on my own and comforting myself is a big 180 and I have done a pretty good job. Just not this week.
