H and I exchanged quite a few texts tonight....we are going shopping together for St. Nicholas (5th of December - Dutch tradition) to get toys for the kids ! Looking forward to it. First time EVER I think !!
H suggested Wednesday night...so I'm trying for a babysitter as we speak...
Okido, that's it...hope all is well with you all !! Many happy thoughts...
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
You're smart to keep your expectations low. But it truly feels that "something," in your relationship with your H, is changing and moving in a wonderful direction, with some definite potential in the mix. Just keep doing whatever you're doing b/c you are truly handling it all magnificently!
I just get such good energy lately from your posts.
I was wondering...has anybody read the book 'when good people have affairs' I hope it's ok to ask that question on this forum. All I'd like is to know whether it's good and if anyone has found that it feels applicable to many of OUR stories here...??
Hi YR and Summer ! I feel that they are positive interactions too, but am truly keeping my expectations at zero and just going about my own thing. Maybe we are both just accepting and moving along...who knows what GOD has planned...
Hugs right back at you xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
It's been a while...how have you been ??? I hope well of course.
So, later on, I'm off to shop for gifts with H. He had said I'll call tomorrow (that was on Monday) and of course he never did, luckily these days I don't fixate on that stuff, and today he called to ask when and where we'd meet. I can tell, he's always nervous on the phone with me...I answered with 'Hello, Cinder's speaking' and he said 'uh hi it's H (his name)' and he talks more official until he's been on the phone a little while and notices that my voice is calm and friendly (yes, I do try ! ) then he usually mellows a bit. I think all interactions with me for him are a bit tense, as he still expects to have the 'old' Cinders reacting and interacting... Well, she's long gone !
So, just a side note, and I've mentioned it before...I need to go on a diet, and loose a few pounds. It's starting to show now and I don't like how it makes me feel. (Unatractive) Anybody have any quick remedies ? uhm especially for a chocaholic?
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
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