I am back. Sydney was great. spent time shopping and lying on Bondi beach. Great city.
Personally I was not great company. Very depressed. Poor friend who was with me. I had a meltdown on the Friday and had H come see me. It was horrible. I hope it was rock bottom. I still have shgakey adrenalin feelings.
It is horrible thinking that he is giving attention and talking to another woman. He said she is just good company, but it is eating me alive. I just cant get on with my life. It is consuming. I have started taking st johns wart to help but then have left the bottle on sydney. So off to buy some more.
A couple of things that i need to address is H need to confront other man. He wants to do it once I move out of the area. It hangs over me. It makes the A on going. i may not move out of this area for a year. I thihnk i will encourage H to confront now.
Not sure of his reasoning for confronting . it is 1 of 2 things
1. He wants OM marriage to fall apart ( OMW does not know full extent of affair )
2. He wants OM to know that he knows thre full truth ( OM thinks it is his and my little secret and that our spouses know nothing )
I have detailed A to H in minute detail and to the best of my ability. My concern is that some of that minute detail is different or less than or more than OM and H will think I am still lying. Also have fear that OMW will come to my home and confront me in front of the kids.
