Healing my Heart Part 6

[fightingirish]

First... thank you my friends... from the bottom of my heart.

Things aren't any better. S2 bday party was on sunday the big "3" H sat on the couch the ENTIRE TIME and did not lift a finger to help all DAY. Mind you he didn't work on Saturday he hunted all day. So That just set me off. I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off... nope not one finger.

So I didn't say a word, didn't want to spoil my son't day. But OMG... H was obnoctous all day long... Im completley serious when I say, the clown showed up right and he's got the tv on in back of her (the movie 300 no less) and 3 and 4 year olds are sitting there... I asked him twice to shut the tv off, and he wouldn't until one of my friends went up to him and asked him to shut if off because if her daughter saw it she would have been scared DUHHHHH.. what a f'in jack ass!! I was so mad, then the clown (she was good by the way)) was telling a story about pigs and he referred to me as one... I could have literally beaten the crap out of him right there and then, Im getting mad again just thinking about it.

This is what I had to deal with all day, him making rude comments to me and then my mom etc. He's got serious problems beyond any help.

I had not eaten all day from running around, After everyone left, I finally sat down to eat at 5pm.. and he asked where his was????? I said get your lazy azz up and get it yourself. I ran all day and haven't eaten anything and your asking me to wait on you now??? You've got to be kidding.

I went to bed. Yesterday he went to work thank the lord.
I had to go and get my heart holster put on then got to S6 thanksgiving thing, and then to s3 bday party at pre school.

he hasn't stopped with the comments, but then calls me today to see how I made out at the dr.s (which I haven't even gone yet) I said don't bother asking me if you doing it to avoid me being mad.

I know that may have been the wrong thing to say, but I believe ZILCH what he says to me. Yes he makes the money, BUT I cannot do it all, I can't, when he needs me for the business I am there, so is it so hard for him to pop in a waffle for the boys in the morning while im getting them ready???? come on.. thats just plain selfish.

Im just full of anger and emotion these last couple of days, to the point where I just want him to stay away. He will be leaving tonight for upstate to do work, he won't be back til late Wed. night. Which is just what I need right now. He hasn't worked since last Thursday, so there was no reason why he couldn't have helped me out these last couple of days. He only talks to me to say something mean, and I told him ive had enough.

And yes sara, I could easily be the WAW... but I won't because of my children. My S6 was whining this morning, and you know what H says to him, that he sounds like me. WTF.. I said dont talk to him that way, you talking about his mother, whether you beleive that or not keep it to your self. This is what I have to deal with. S6 told him not to talk to me like that... Love that kid.

So I think there is nothing else I can do at this point. I have to deal with this crap until S3 gets into K and then I will look for a full time job. I will just have to come on here and vent what else can I do, Im trapped here, I just have to suck it up until then.