Sorry you had a hard spot yesterday. Truth be told, I have those too still...just not nearly as frequently as I used to. It's appropriate to grieve over what's been lost. Because, no matter where we all go from here, we've lost something...something important!!!
I wish I could take away that hurt for you, for me, for all of us, but it's just something we each have to learn to deal with in our own way. You are stronger than you even realize!!! And, the more you figure out what you want to do with yourself, the more you might realize just how much you gave up for the marriage.
My friend at work told me the other day that she felt I had been making concessions for the marriage for so long that I didn't even realize I was doing it. She said that she thought I was beginning to realize that now, and that the idea that I might be able to get back some of the things I gave up was starting to excite me! That's what you need...to get back some of what you gave up!
I'm gonna keep encouraging you to look into classes or going back to school or coffee with a friend or a trip in December to VA or whatever!!! Whatever happens with your H, you certainly will never regret trying to build a new, exciting life for Tawnya during this crisis!!!
Love you much! Amy
Me 39 H 36 S 7 S 4 T 15 M 12 H out 8/1/08 OW confirmed 8/6/08 D final on 6/12/09...I'm doing good!
