God grant me the patience and the strength...9

[theotherhalf]

Was busy at work yesterday. Thank goodness, we've been soooo slow. It's makes for such long days. Could use some extra hours but after twiddling your thumbs for 6 or 7 hours I can't wait to get out of there.

H worked late but came here after work. He paced around for awhile, like he couldn't decide if he was staying or not. He was pretty quiet and cold to me but good with D17. He stayed but slept on the couch. Seemed to be in a much better mood this morning.

It is so damb hard not asking what he is thinking, feeling, planning! It's hard holding back, not to reach out to him! But I am and I'm praying every second that it is the right thing to do right now...