I am afraid my emotions will be working overtime. I am going to go because I do not wnt to "what if" myself. She was at the house when I got home last night, getting some of her winter clothes. I couldn't even look at her. When she said hello, all I said was Hi, and then she said, oh, thats all I get is a single word. What the hell did she expect. I can not be happy around her. when I see her I am angry at her. Can't help it.
thanksgiving outta be a real trip. I have several people who will call me throughout the day to see how I am holding up. I know I need to do this, I need to be able to do this. My D told me this morning that I had better be going. Will call FIL tonight and talk to him. He is very worried about me from what I have heard and he prays I am going to his house.
