More anger from her tonight...and so very unnecessary. When she came by to pick up our baby (close to 7pm - and she didn't call to let me know she would be so late) - I went outside with our S2 and she told me to put him down - and, again, would not take him from my arms. So I did - and it just seemed to confuse him - and then as she was putting him in the car, I apologized to her for snipping at her the night before - when she claimed I didn't care about our son - and was started to say that I understand her being angry with me - but if she could please leave the children out of it - and she got furious and told me to back away and stop talking to her or she would call the police...I was stunned...so I just said, okay, and waved goodbye to our baby...and went into the house.
I know that she's broke right now - she just told me that she has no cash - but she also had to pay me back for the car payment I made for her this month - and which she agreed to take over before she moved out. She didn't pay me back the full amount...and I think she's now trying to blame me for her not having any money - but it's not my fault at all...she gets her paychecks deposited directly into her own account - and I helped cover the cost of her move (the deposit on her new place)...it's just so interesting, that she says nothing to me about herself and her life - until she tells me that she's got a negative cash flow...I think she wanted me to rescue her - and since normally I would (have) I think it angers her that I'm not offering her anything at all...I just will not fix things...
Today - tonight - her words - and the threat of calling the police - just made it all that much easier to want to move on - and to let her go entirely. This person - however much she is suffering - is not someone I can even imagine having a healthy relationship with - it saddens me - but I do wonder if perhaps she's just far too damaged to find herself again...I pray that's not the case - for her and for our son...but she isn't my wife anymore...I hardly even know her at all now.
