Treese - I signed on to check in on you. I'm glad you have some things to help you look up. We have a lot in common as we approach the holidays. Unfortunately, I never got that family photo----I always wanted one, but my H wasn't "in to" that kind of thing, so I never made him do it. I guess it would only be harder to look at if I had one now.
I told my kids that I wasn't looking forward to the holidays. A few days passed and my D15 asked when could we go get our tree. D11 spoke up and said, Mom doesn't want a tree. I said NO---I do want to decorate, I want a tree, the holidays will just be really hard for me, because all of this is still bothering me. I still have a problem with being separated. My kids were silent. Nothing. NO, I don't want them to break down and spend days crying (like I do), but silence is just how H is reacting and I think it is so wrong! How come I am THE only one that seems to be having such a problem with this!!!
OK, sorry to vent. I guess I need to go post on my thread.
I think we both need to go out of our way to make the holidays something wonderful.................hang in there!!
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
