Sophie, There is always someone here on holidays. I'll be here for part of the day to offer support to those who are posting.
You stepping around mines in a mine field when it comes to his emotional state right now. That's why it was good that you clarified what you meant.
Plan you day as if he weren't coming and enjoy it with your family. He's the one that is losing out in the long run.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.