Hard to stay positive. I feel like H and I have a huge wall between us.
Last week d13 told me H was having some tests done. Not feeling well. He told her he may need surgery. Not sure what is going on. I didn't ask him either. Not sure if it is insurance related or stress or what.
He looked fine when I saw him on Saturday. He came by to see d13. I didn't spend much time with him. Caught him giving me a look ...not sure if it was nasty or just a look.
He is angry. He thinks that i charged things on a credit card and now he is repsonsible and they are coming after him. He claims he did not know. I know that he was aware ....as this was debt from our store we discussed several years ago. I wish I could just yell at him...that if he had stayed instead of ran, we would never have the financial problems we have. Everything was current prior to him leaving.
Anyway, Sunday he called d13 to tell her that he couldn't come by. Had to work. Told her his sister was having thanksgiving and the time of dinner. I told d13 that her brother will drive them over as I think I will be staying home this year. Hard to have a nice holiday with someone who is taking you to court to force you to sell your home, blaming you for unpaid debt and using you for years for insurance.
Yick. I feel like my whole life with H was a lie. I feel like things will never be right again with him......if they ever were to begin with.
So thanks for letting me vent. I am thankful for this board and your help. I am thankful I have 2 children who love and respect me and a father who cares about my well being.
