Hey Mish, People keep asking me what I am doing for Christmas and I say "Chrismtas is cancelled for me, again, this year". You are not alone, I feel the same.. I hate going supermarket shopping now becuase of all the "seasonal" stuff
Like you, I LOVED christmas, big ole tree, would make decorations and buy the most thoughtful gifts for people (espcially my ex).. we had some wonderful times. And he left me 6 weeks before Christmas, which made it worse for me. Christmas morning last year, I swear I thought I was having a breakdown (mainly as my Mum started shouting at me becuse I wuldnt come out of my room or eat the breakfast she had made me and said I had hurt her feelings! But I digress). I was in a shop recently and Christmas music came on and I had to run out.. so, yep, its understandable!
Let it wash over you... this year wont be great.. maybe next year wont be amazing, but it wont be as bad as this year. Just accept you cant buy presents. Write letters instead. Dont sweat it Mishka, you had years of lovely christmases in the past, as I did, and you will have them in the future.
NLP is neuro linguistic programming.. reprogramming your mind. When you get anxious/upset, its just your own head doing your head in, so you learn to switch thoughts.
Great that Gabe is helping with your Mum. Sad he looks like a hobo now. Such a pointless destructive path he chose. Ali x
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread