Trust me..I know... Im not even sure I can let myself take him back... He broke my heart. I will always love him...but I have put up such a brick wall around my heart... I dont know.
He is trying...
No contact with her... Quitting smoking... Working out... Cleaned my entire house and did all my laundry yesterday while I was at work... Playing with the kids... Not going out... Keeping a journal... Praying... Being remorseful... Makig ammends with family...
But I just dont know..
As I have had to move on and heal.... I have found myself stronger, more confident and attracted to someone...
Not that it would ever turn into anything with this person..it wont...
But, it has shown me that I can feel again ... and maybe find someone that can be true to me....
But, I feel guilty for not immediately wanting to reconsile... my kids would love to see us back together as a family.
I feel so lost and confused... dont know what to do.
