MLC PTSD: Is there any connection?

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It's all good. It may be that life w/ kids is not what H imagined. I can't change that. It is what it is. I love my H, and know we were not married long. But I also realize that I must move forward, and have done a great deal to create a life of my own. I don't want my M to end, but if it does I am prepared.

Kel, yes, there are other things than the classic examples. Usually we go through periods of time where we don't speak, not usually lasting more than 10 days, and then all of a sudden I will hear from him again. I know, still cliche. I just went through this again, he finally called me Friday. I has sent him a text just to ask a question, and he called me later. We ended up having a 20 minute conversation, he initiated asking me if I was okay.

I know he is absolutely miserable right now, miserable in his life, miserable in his job. He is from Germany and has not been home in several years, so I suspect that he is missing his mom and dad as well.

I am currently reading Men in Midlife Crisis, and within the first 30 pages I kept expecting to see my H's picture.

I have a strong faith in God, and the feeling I get is that I am supposed to have great strength and patience. Therefore, I will follow that path, regardless of the outcome, because in the end, my H will remember, either way, that I loved him and did not give up on him.

But, I also have my own life. I have friends, have become active in my church, and am frankly enjoying my life. I have reached a level of peace and acceptance that I have not experienced since the S, and I am doing well. Finding the information was a real positive, but I am also not wallowing in grief anymore. And that is a relief!