Mountainman-finally moved to surviving!

[mountainman]

It has been an interesting weekend. We had our final mediation appt on Friday and no bombs were dropped. We changed some things but nothing major. Biggest problem is medical insurance. I agreed to keep my wife on my insurance, but found out my employer will not allow it. So, we have to figure out how to move forward. It was very friendly and amicable, we even joked around a bit, helped to loosen the tension. We even went to lunch together afterward!
I have confirmation that I will get the house I wanted, so that is good.
The weekend was a bit rough. It was my weekend with the kids, but she was around the whole time, dropping hints about cleaning (which I was doing) and then critizising how I was cleaning, etc. Last night I was making the kids beds and the radio was playing butterfly kisses. Man, that really got to me and for the first time in about 6 months, I cried over what I was losing. I will not be able to kiss and hug my kids to bed at bedtime. Wife caught me crying, asked if I was ok and said I was, just got upset over the song. She gave me a hug and that was the end of it.
We also talked a lot about telling her family. She already talks to them all, but I am close with many of them and would like to be able to talk to them about it as well. She said that it would be best to email her sisters, which I did.
It is all very weird, but it would be so much worse if we were not getting along.

Not sure what else to say other than that. Have some time off coming up, really need to work on some GALing. One month and counting until I start to move my stuff out. It will be soon after that, that we will tell the kids what is going on.

Things feel a little different this week for some reason. I have the weekend off, but not really looking forward to it. Past weekends I was jazzed about having free time, but no so much now. Maybe the reality is starting to set in? I dont know. Trying to hang in there.

Strength and honor